I'm losing focus and drive. I haven't seen my friends in a long time (two I have ran into at their place of employment). I'm hoping this is Winter Blues but I'm not certain how to combat it. My mom has been taking a product called Keto-OS, which has helped her lose weight, but it's not really a weight loss product. It puts your kidneys in Ketosis, which makes your body burn fat instead of sugar, but the medical benefits of the product are amazing. It has helped people with diabetes, chronic pain, exhaustion, bi-polar, and depression. I've been taking it with the hope that it will give me more energy, clarity of mind, and help with my mood. I need to up the dosage and make sure I'm taking it twice a day, instead of just once.

Also...

I love my friends, but there's been something strange going on with me. I've never been a social butterfly, but to get out of the house involves serious effort. The last few times my friends invited me somewhere, I passed. 

Sometimes I'm afraid that I let my relationships get so thin that they eventually just break apart and separate entirely. But I hate being lonely, and I do love having companions. Right? My friends are great people, and I'm lucky to have them. I enjoy being around them. 

I blame the cold! It's got to be this weather. Freezing and dreary. It's only natural I'd rather stay home and read on the couch than spend time with people. Right?

I just don't feel right. Figure me out, me! Before I'm a lone wolf that's chased everyone away and sings sadly into the night--am I seriously using the lone wolf analogy? Yeah, I need to get out more. I'm turning into a cliche. 

100 Books in 2016

I'm going to read 100 books this year! I'm determined! It's a wonderful goal, if you ask me, and it makes me happy. Stories always have been where my heart truly lies. 

A lot of that has to do with the fact that when I'm in somebody else's head, I'm not in mine. I can think about their problems, hang out with their friends, be a part of something special. Some might say that I should pull my head out of the pages and live my own life, make it just as spectacular, and they'd be right. But for right now, I have a goal, and if I can achieve that goal, I'll feel really awesome about me.

And who doesn't want to feel awesome about themselves?